last resort

this is my last requiem after farewell
how we decided that alteration
always in same but different sides
i recall you for the last time...

you're the one deserves noble love
any tear i drip can deify you
we are so incurable by this fate
severe roles we have to act
a consuming tragedy suffered in
my sacrifice was to withdraw

you were the name reminding love
my convinced eyes ever tried to see
i was sane, but away from resort
my past had to decide the pride
even we never said goodbye...
always weak enough to step back

even to all fake legends telling same
can't believe 'none goes eternally'
yet i know i lost completely
then my quesitons create new ones
serenity on solution with all wonder
must only the deads be sent
through a grave without a tear
for me you're dead pretending alive
have to celebrate this funeral
i know sorrows are not forever

even we never said goodbye...
this was my last requiem for you
after farewell without a goodbye
this is my lat resort to you

a true and to eternity

dreadful hours quicken the time
i feel everything summerized
that was my first choice to leave
i blot the papers once again
just to drip my sorrow out

this is the sunset of my love
my heart could see over the dusk
it is a virtual entity of this life
that exists sans a sorrow, why?
total abstraction this is, i condemn

ever tried to join this nature
all my seduction had no exception
words were the reason to oblige
secret ways of survival out here
ruined after mighty distortion

surounded by the secret ghosts
to feel, i am to be alone forever
alteration is a nonsense solution
my innocence was not such obscene
methinks, this is my clear oblivion

dreaming of melancholy

this is a night of dimmed lights

where the winds embraced my flesh

saturnine atmosphere tended to drowse

and make my breath join the wind

cold night, cold colors i feel

something between love and hate

their mismatch in their own type

drives me to wrong way to chose

that was my mere content...

i'm the name of melancholy

noble eyes to share the tragedies

so feeble, then i lay with my Muse

did know her choice was different

yet i was to transfer my misery

to give her an idea to get out

this is a tale of different hearts

where i adorned even her rejection

elegant sentences were to confuse

and characters died of cruel love

as if an outstanding end to cry

i'm the story of that sad memory

the hero of that nameless tale

all authors never to connect

me and my melancholic dreams

im the name of melancholy

is this the magic i craved

she difuse unwise enigmas in me

i have attended in the chains

of consuming injection by tears

we're subject of this dream

i'm the name of melancholy

subjectives

sustain of terrible stories injected
yearn a safe place despite the trust
i'm the only subject of this life
all i have to be a sad memory
my flesh drips a tear tenderly

i've counted days for revealed hopes
and waited the sign of elevation
then the Godly present was sent
over my darkness she was the light
uphaply it was the beginning of the night

i've entered different ways of pleasure
injected love in my veins
how i should know rejections
so cruel, without a word
just by the simple behaviours
that leaves much pain inside

they say 'God take all sorrowers
and cherish to the highest thrones'
i wonder if this tears are enough
so why i am still living in here
why i am still in this reverie

i am the only subject of this life
despite the trust, i seek a place...

withering ideals

nameless alternative tragedy
agression breed tear a time
side aside through extremity
within a lesser use of senses
blind the future of destiny

the fast ideas became faster
there are far too many
overwhelming confusion replaces clarity
stop keeping up with it...memory gone
infectious humor ceases to amuse

everything is now against the serenity
you're irritable...
anger, fear...uncontrollable
trapped in the dark caves of the mind
caves that you never know were there

it will never end

nameless alternative utopia
darkness inspired a light from me
sane ideals against disorders
corrupted by unseend intensivity
it will never end

atheist

your splendid beauty recovers
i know all these are vitual
the projection of the unknown life
how i could believe in you

i'm the object to be complaint
lack of connection, out of signals
mere trance to reject elevations
i fail into confusion of extremity
my past failure was to believe in you

your religion to slain my mind
weaker than a philosopher
mightier than a Goddess
the postulates are the paradoxes

even i blaspheme, even i deny
i'm the exception of your heaven
surrounded by your slaughter
i worship everything in you, even to you
couldn't relinquish your inspiration

there must be a way to filter
all chosern meanless trust
the trail i have been following
is my chosen eager to melancholy
or convince me otherwise

untrustful sense

brightness of stars began to fade
moon reflectaeddarkness until then
my rotation with mother earth
lost the might of centrifuge
i gained different colors in here
will i be stronger again?
my source of tears dried out
that was my unfathomable logic in life

fast seconds released everything
my past from creases on skin
i shaped my expectations 'a body'
with a tendency of loving her

she talked to me in the language
that i never heard before
then i reversed everything that night
in the mood without a hope
my blurred eyes saw fake visions
i was so sensitive to be broken (in two)
how to be sure she had no lie
i realized the sense of hallucinations